The most heart wrenching thing to me was in making high marks as an Elder, yet only to be rejected by the Church. I have struggled long and hard to be of service to the Lord, but in all this time “the establishment” seems to dismiss or even marginalize the things of God, learned at the basal or radical level. Perhaps I have missed something, in moving in spiritual power; but for the life of me I don’t know what it is, or what else I can do?