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Shutting down the opposition

Maybe if we keep our mouths shut, no one will notice that we belong to the Lord…?    That sounds like Peter, prior to Pentecost!

[PS; I forgot to mention energy & environmental controls as well – towards the end of the video.]


 

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False Guilt

Is a tool of Satan in manipulating our emotions to carry a burden around that we need not be carrying. So, we seek relief by trying to atone for it! Yet the Bible teaches that we are only accountable for our own sins alone before the Lord, and that Christ shed his blood for the sinner that we might be set free! If we confess OUR SINS, he is faithful and just to forgive us, as we are redeemed by the atonement on the cross alone, and not of our own efforts!


 

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NTEB radio-War Against Whiteness (link)

The Radical Left Is Waging A Cultural Race

War Against Whites While Pretending To Be Working To End Racism.


 

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Stand on the Rock

I have discovered over the years that when I get a deep spiritual pain to my heart because of something someone has said to me, it is because they are attacking Christ within me! This is a very distinctive feeling unlike any other. We all have disagreements, but an attack in our spirit is nothing less than spiritual warfare given by the spirit of anti-Christ!  *I want to thank Will Johnson, of Unite America First; for inadvertently showing me this on one of his videos.


 

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Damnation or Growth

Parables in the scriptures must always be read in contexts and the totality to other scripture, in relationship to the covenants – (the time we are now in).
Here are a couple examples…
Matthew 13: 1–9, 18–23 The parable of the sower of seed, is a growth parable for the actual believer ; just like in –
John 15 : 1-27 with particular examination of verse 6.


 

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Light Vessel

A believer is here to glorify God as a reflection of His work in us. We are to be “vessels of light for Christ”, not of our own efforts – but because of His grace and providence!
This is a hard lesson, but definitely one worth learning!


 

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Holiness or Hypocrisy?

My Utmost for His Highest, reads : Take the Initiative
…add to your faith virtue… 2 PETER 1:5
Add means that we have to do something. We are in danger of forgetting that we cannot do what God does, and that God will not do what we can do. We cannot save nor sanctify ourselves— God does that. But God will not give us good habits or character, and He will not force us to walk correctly before Him. We have to do all that ourselves. We must “work out” our “own salvation” which God has worked in us (Philippians 2:12). Add means that we must get into the habit of doing things, and in the initial stages that is difficult. To take the initiative is to make a beginning— to instruct yourself in the way you must go.
Beware of the tendency to ask the way when you know it perfectly well. Take the initiative— stop hesitating— take the first step. Be determined to act immediately in faith on what God says to you when He speaks, and never reconsider or change your initial decisions. If you hesitate when God tells you to do something, you are being careless, spurning the grace in which you stand. Take the initiative yourself, make a decision of your will right now, and make it impossible to go back. Burn your bridges behind you, saying, “I will write that letter,” or “I will pay that debt”; and then do it! Make it irrevocable.
We have to get into the habit of carefully listening to God about everything, forming the habit of finding out what He says and heeding it. If, when a crisis comes, we instinctively turn to God, we will know that the habit has been formed in us. We have to take the initiative where we are, not where we have not yet been.



In my opinion therefore, it is wrong to “hide behind the Lord”  when in fact we are being simply apathetic towards others; or when saying things like; it is wrong to love the world – instead of the Lord, when we are actually only loving ourselves! This is rather just a sanctimonious viewpoint of the soul, and ultimately the “grandest excuse” to be self-absorbed, apathetic, complacent, and dismissive of others!

With this type of narcissistic psychopathy (which can stem from a poor upbringing or parenting skills)   one must “push in to overcome this emotional complacency” by moving outside one’s self in the service of others, rather than simply “ withdrawing in the Lord” (self-Sanctification)  as an excuse from the idea of – actually engaging with others; which is oftentimes required to be effective to others, and our Lord when he direct us to be.

In short, our apathy towards others should never be painted as in simply following “Holiness”; when in fact Jesus never instructed anyone to become so socially withdrawn as to not engage with others. In fact, this type of behavior could be viewed as disobedience; when the Lord attempts to move in us – yet we will not be moved, and therefore is not in accordance with the scriptures, and is not how the Holy Spirit operates – but rather rooted in self instead.


 

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Lordship Salvation Teachings

People often have an incomplete understanding of different doctrines; they make statements which are untrue as a result. 

2 Timothy 2:15 – is written in proving such a point…

15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.

A balanced understanding of the scriptures in contexts, is required to not mislead or deceive others.


 

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My Dream

The god of this world is coming, and already at work within our midst.
Constant media “suggestion” subverts the mind for easier control…
Anyway. that’s what my dream was all about, a prisoner in my own home!


 

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Above reproach?

When one sees themselves as alway in the right, the need to forgive and love others as yourself fades away, this is commonly referred to as legalism! Matthew 24:12 speaks to this, and why folks have no more use for others!


 

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Things the Bible Says We’ll Lose in the Last Days (link)

Apr 23, 2020

Missionary Evangelist Robert Breaker talks about the things the world will lose in the last days according to the Bible. NOTE: I erroneously said that there were 250,000 killed world-wide by the CoronaVirus. That figure was a little high. As of 4/23/2020 the actual figure was: 190,788. So, I wanted to make sure I gave the actual figure as of the date I posted this video.


 

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The LORD is TRUTH!

“Mark Twain” (Samuel Clemens) once said: “Lies, damned lies, and statistics”
A phrase describing the persuasive power of numbers, particularly the use of statistics to bolster weak arguments. It is also sometimes colloquially used to doubt statistics used to prove an opponent’s point.

So, the believer must learn to yield to the Lord “in all things” when coming to a knowledge of the Truth! The “world” hasn’t this ability; yet the genuine believer has been given this ability to see in Christ!


 

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FAITH DESTROYER

The Righteous Live by FAITH – Not by sight. In other words, what you believe does not affect the indwelling work of the Holy Spirit within you. Remember, we are God’s work, and not our own, once we have been sealed for the day of redemption!


 

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Perfect Love Cast Out Fear

2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

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Stiff Necked

Oswald Chambers teaches on his April 7th devotional the following quote…

As the disciples were commanded, you should also say nothing until the Son of Man has risen in you— until the life of the risen Christ so dominates you that you truly understand what He taught while here on earth. When you grow and develop the right condition inwardly, the words Jesus spoke become so clear that you are amazed you did not grasp them before. In fact, you were not able to understand them before because you had not yet developed the proper spiritual condition to deal with them.

Our Lord doesn’t hide these things from us, but we are not prepared to receive them until we are in the right condition in our spiritual life. Jesus said, “I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now” (John 16:12). We must have a oneness with His risen life before we are prepared to bear any particular truth from Him. Do we really know anything about the indwelling of the risen life of Jesus? The evidence that we do is that His Word is becoming understandable to us. God cannot reveal anything to us if we don’t have His Spirit. And our own unyielding and headstrong opinions will effectively prevent God from revealing anything to us. But our insensible thinking will end immediately once His resurrection life has its way with us.

“…tell no one….” But so many people do tell what they saw on the Mount of Transfiguration— their mountaintop experience. They have seen a vision and they testify to it, but there is no connection between what they say and how they live. Their lives don’t add up because the Son of Man has not yet risen in them. How long will it be before His resurrection life is formed and evident in you and in me?


It is headstrong and hypocritical to say that; others use the Bible to teach what they want, yet you yourself do the very same thing! (Romans 2:1-5)

How tragic to think that you are so spiritually spot on in your understanding, that you simply discard the discernment of others who have tried to share with you.

It is frustrating and almost laughable when we see a Bible study leader who “thinks” that they are so “very exclusively sanctified” in Christ; that no one else can move their heart towards seeing God move, beyond anything bigger than their own Cognitive Dissonance!

This is not Spirituality at all, but simply stubbornness and bull headed when even the closest of brethren are powerless to help, until one repents from such a comfortable yet prideful position of the mind, the one who is so blinded in their own conceits!  (Proverbs 26:12), (Romans 12:16)

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Completed in Christ

 

The Great Seporation

The above Graphic has been changed as the idea that Sheol, Hades, (the place of death or sleep) known as Abraham’s Bosom – for the Old Testament Saints no longer exists today as for waiting for the Savior *Messiah and Redeemer. As He Has Risen from the Dead; Jesus Christ 3 days and nights after his Crucifixion on the Cross of Calvary. He descended to the “Bowls of the Earth” then ascended to the right hand of the Father. Not only was Christ resurrection witnessed on that day, but all the Old Testament Saints were resurrected as well!

Isaiah speaks about Hell being “expanded” to receive the masses of people who were not saved from sin.

It is likely that Hell now included Hades, and the great chasm which separated the Old Testament Saints in Paradise. 

The idea that Hades still exists as a receptacle for those who died without Christ, and that Hell is for the “Broad Roader” (who once came to a Saving faith, then leaves their Salvation in Christ) is unbiblical, and simply cannot be supported by scriptural texts when taken in the context of both the Old or New Testaments.

Poor understanding of the scriptures often results in a “customization of them”, in support of a particular doctrine. To me this is Heretical to hold and to teach such doctrines *with the full knowledge of scriptural texts which invalidates such doctrines, and therefore deceives many.

Personally, I have found that anything which detracts from the Lord Jesus Christ, his burial and resurrection from the dead as the Son of the Living God (God Man) and ascension into heaven at the right hand of the Father, is a dangerous president to preach against the totality of the completed work of Christ done on the cross.

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Building a Following

Confident, convincing, speak well? You would make a great politician, salesman, or even a Cult leader, if you are good at twisting the truth to win people over towards your way of thinking! Only the demagoguery of Lordship Salvation, would call the grace of God a doctrine of the broad road! The Bible warns about such people, so you mustn’t be lazy in checking out the contexts and content of what’s being said!


This is by no means my best video, as I am upset someone would use a Global Pandemic like an opportunist to spotlight themselves while pushing heresies in using the scriptures.

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Hell vs the Lake of Fire

Sermon for Sunday, October 9, 2016. This is the 106th sermon preached in English on http://www.thecloudchurch.org. It was preached by Pastor/Missionary Evangelist Robert Breaker, who shows the difference between Hell and the Lake of Fire.


 

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The 7 Judgments (link)

Missionary Evangelist Robert Breaker talks about the Seven Judgments in the Bible.


Out of all the teachings we may hear today, I believe this basic understanding is MOST needed to walk as son’s and daughters of God.

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No Comparison

I dedicate this video to a “diamond in the rough” old waterman I knew,
who never compared himself to others.
We would often speak about the Lord while fishing.
See you again my brother!


 

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Lamb, Lent, Passover

I unquestionably believe that being partakers with Christ’s blood atonement on the cross is the only way in which we are made acceptable to the Lord. The whole of the Gospel depends upon the shedding of blood for the remission of sin. If men make religious ceremonies which detract from this life-giving truth, they have perhaps even unknowingly, taken away from the truth of the “Lamb who was slain” in our behalves. In this video I “hyper focus” upon the blood of Christ at the atonement, and wonder why anyone would detract from the Lamb’s blood which was shed for us?



The Passover lamb was the sacrifice given at the temple for sins of the jews for that year. Since the temple was destroyed, the jew is no longer permitted to eat lamb at passover.
Lent and Passover have many similarities in recognizing our sin struggle and new birth by the atonement in what Christ has done for us as the lamb of God on the cross; which we celebrate at Easter.
To me, although most would disagree; it seems that eating of Fish on good friday, in observance of Christ hanging on the cross; would be akin to not partaking in the feast of the Lamb: who is Christ, much like the Jew will not partake in eating lamb (any longer at Passover) as they will not recognise the heavenly tabernacle now seated with the blood of Christ on the bemis seat!?
Is not eating lamb, but fish on Fridays actually symbolizing or rejecting the atonement of Christ in action? Even Holy Communion while partaking symbolically in the body and blood of Christ, in remembrance of him; was Christ’s own commandment to his disciples. So, to the contrary would be the sustaining from red meat in which the Roman Catholic tradition insist upon!
Is it just me, or do these other religious traditions deny Christ’s atonement on the cross? And if so, I would submit to the listener that remorse for sin can never be forgiven without the spiritual partaking of receiving the blood and body of the Lamb. The Sanctimonious actions of having remorse for our sins; achieves nothing without partaking in the act of forgiveness by the blood of the lamb!
And although Passover and Lent are religious ceremonies conducted in order to honor our Lord, they are but worthless without taking the blood and body unto ourselves. To me, that is a Satanic twist which purposely misses the point of the cross.

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Clouded Judgment

I never realized just how significant and far reaching so called, “Trump derangement syndrome” really is; and it reaches far beyond the United States, even into some’s spiritual life!


Here is a link to: Is Trump Our King?
Is Trump Our King?


 

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The Dirty City

“Nice middle class Christians” don’t like to engage themselves with the world, nor even hear anything which might rattle their faith! I don’t believe Jesus wishes us to succumb to our comfort zones, but rather to grow and be able to engage the enemy, should we meet him! In this video, I speak about one of the ways I learned this lesson…
A succubus demon: they appear as beautiful seductive women that prey on mankind and strike if the opportunity presents itself. … HE can shape change into a cat, fox, dog or wolf


 

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Cognitive Dissonance

Cognitive Dissonance or Gobbledygook … Do we really Seek the Lord in all things? Do we go to Him when we don’t understand his way in our lives? Or are we content within our own conceits, biases, concepts, and dogmas? Most people will choose the ladder, and it takes great humility to seek the Lord, so that he can show us his greater will in our lives, and understanding by faith. This issue here is our hearts, and not just our understanding between our ears, Amen?


 

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A letter of simple faith…

I’m by no means a professional writer, in fact I grew up with severe dyslexia having trouble in school, but one thing I have learned is that the Lord has always been with me!

I had returned from Ft. Bragg under my volunteer orders for Operation Enduring Freedom (2003-2004). I had hoped to gain promotion as a Platoon Sergeant (E-7) and Stevedore from that of a harder MOS as a Marine Engineer, which I worked in daily as a dual status technician on Army Watercraft. This was not to be, and I didn’t like the idea of being subservient to a soldier who made little effort when it came down to tending to her troops, once missing my promotion when returning home. So, I went back into the watercraft unit in which I worked full time for, as I figured it was allot nicer than going to the desert as a truck driver, which the Army pushed me to train for after leading a truck platoon on active duty. Yet I worried about returning to the grueling task of once again attempting to get my next level engineering license, taking months in school – a large amount of which I already knew, as I had spent time at the U.S. Merchant Marine Academy; but the Army TC had refused our much needed course materials!  I had struggled with engineering academics since my time in the Coast Guard, yet felt gifted in my practical knowledge in some of  which a Warrant Officer that was the head of maintenance, had tried to get me awarded earlier in my career.

On February 6th, 2005, was now off leave and had joined my old unit for their annual water survival training at Ft. Meade, Md. I think I had donned a floatation suite for the training which was a bit small for me that day, and even though the NCO’s weren’t required to do so, I thought it only appropriate to partake in the full level of training since my absence and return. At noon on that day, I finally removed the neoprene suit, only to experience what I thought was severe heartburn and ask to lie down for just a few moments from my Commander. Immediately CW4 Gunport called 911, and the paramedics my brother had worked with showed up on seen, and none to soon, as just when they had hooked me up, my heart completely stopped, and I sank into a void of darkness!

I suppose this was the “first stage” of death, but as I lay on my back in that void of darkness and loneliness, I immediately felt the presence of a man pressing (R) shoulder to shoulder against me! As I looked over I could make out a ghostly figure of a man in a robe, shoulder length hair and a beard! It was Jesus Christ, and there was no place I could go in which I was separated from him, alleluia! Without Christ, it would have been the loneliest experience which I had ever experienced! As the Paramedics defibrillated my heart, it was as if a manhole cover was slid open from above me, I could see the men working on me as I seemed to emerge from the abyss!

Later as they continued to defibrillate my heart enroot to the hospital, I can remember wishing I could see where I was, yet no windows were in the ambulance. All the sudden, I was looking down upon my own ambulance in perfect clarity of mind and vision! I prayed hard to the Lord not to take me yet, as I worried about my wife, and having not completed my earthly mission in my ascension. The Lord answered my prayer, and the next thing I can remember was in being loaded into the medivac helicopter for air lift before passing out!

A Footnote: I had worked around helicopters before and had hoped I would finally get a flight which I could remember; but I guess I’m just being silly. Also, it was three days after my Ordination credentials were received, and it was a big hit for the men at work – as they roared with laughter! This was also near to my twenty years of military service too.

When I arrived at Washington Hospital Center for emergency stenting, I woke up ever so briefly to see my wife in the ICU unit beside me, and I told her to hide in the corner. I didn’t wake up again until three days later. I was not expected to survive the night I learned later, and the staff discovered Elaine, forcing her to leave the ICU.

As I finally awoke the first thing, I saw was my Mother and Father at the foot of my bed watching me, and I’m sure with plenty of prayers. My Brother the PA at the Naval Hospital sat beside me. My twin sister flew in from Texas and her son, later my friends, Sergeant Majors and Army Officers came in to visit. Later after two weeks my stent started to clog up again in my proximal LAD, and they rushed me down to the operating room again. The Wife and I were sure this was it this time, when a nurse spoke to me calmly and exclaimed to me “Mr. Dell, the Enemy knows who you are, but this will not affect the things which the Lord has planned for you!” …. I was stunned as I had never seen this nurse before, yet she had repeated back to me a private prayer I had prayed weeks before about being like Paul, Silos, and Jesus!

Within a day after I awoke, I received a phone call that said I was no longer insured under TRICARE, as I had been off active duty for more than a year! That started a long campaign with me and other service members in securing military medical treatment for not only line of duty injuries and sickness like myself but including combat wounded reservists as well! I can remember the late Astronaut Chuck Brady, telling me that Abraham Lincoln would have turned over in his grave if he had known veterans didn’t receive the care they had earned! With the help of the late Senator John McCain, my case along with many others, went all the way up to the Pentagon and TRICARE Reserve select was later passed into law.

This was an election year, and soon afterwards my Military Medical Board started feeling the pressure in completing my case file, which had grown to the size of a phone book! The poor NCO who decided to work my case (when others wouldn’t) got reprimanded from the command responsible for handling my case. It was tragic; the poor Soldier who made it as easy as he could on us, got in trouble for the technicality of not having us present everyday of administrative turmoil! But as they say shit rolls downhill, and the poor man got relieved from a very hard position and job!

Three weeks later after returning to Church, the sermon was on the Good Shepherd lying down with the lamb; it was as if the Holy Spirit dumped over me like a bucket of water, and I then knew in faith that the Good Shepherd was lying down with me the day my heart stopped!

13 years later my hearts hardware to my implantable defibrillator had grown “vegetation” or infection right into the chamber of my heart. It was a major emergency which only my device nurse became alarmed about when pointing out a pink spot right below the “can” located at the top of my left chest. Immediately Elaine and I rushed to the hospital again in Baltimore, in not having enough time to even pack our belongings! The University of Maryland made test after tests, and scans after scan while debating back and forth what they should do, or in my case, not do! If that wasn’t grueling enough, I developed an allergic reaction to the strong antibiotic fluid being pumped into me. I had developed “Red Man’s” on every square inch of my body, which felt like rolling around in a field full of mosquitoes!

Elaine stayed with me many nights, but I could not help but groan being so uncomfortable. I had also left a fellowship which had accused me of being “Chastened of God” for following politics too much (a love for the world, as they saw it). Let me tell you, the last thing one needs to hear in such misery is a bunch of self-righteous Job’s Comforters during such a trail of life!

I would like to interject at this point, that my devise nurse also was in a church much like this and had to leave, and her political views were not really on par with mine, yet we were good friends for the love of Christ in our lives; and she ended up doing medical missionary work overseas, and told me the supplies always managed to reach her on time! We must be careful in how we view others walks in the Lord!

It was strange this time around in the hospital in fearing for my life, the only experience I had was in the catherization lab, they had put on some canned music and half dazed the song started playing “Knock, knock ,knocking on heavens door, by Bob Dylan – a man who once denounced his faith in Christ. The staff then scrambled to turn it off, as tears started running down my face. I was a one-time cowboy shooter at the range at that time!

At the end of that week, I was encouraged by a doctor with a thick German accent to arrange surgery at Johns Hopkins, with the man who invented laser surgery to the heart, Dr Love. The morning I was slated to leave (so that I wouldn’t have to be on suppression therapy the rest of my life), I saw a familiar sight outside my window, it was the small company truck my dad was with, and I worked for also making a delivery to the Hospital! To me, that was just the medicine which I needed to lift my spirit up!

Many times, within our lives it is the little personal things which our Lord knows about us, and not the grandiose spectacular things which the world sees as important! Knowing Jesus Christ is one of the most personal things we can experience, and that’s why we shouldn’t cast our little pearls before swine who will turn and render us with them! Often, people don’t want to see or hear these testimonials of hope, as they love the darkness, rather than the light, a testament to the fall of mankind from grace.

One thing which I have learned in growing in my faith, is that one’s experiences may go from spectacular to diminished, but it does not mean the Lord has left us, (or we have left the Lord) rather like a child the Father needn’t to have to hold us as close, as we grow into spiritual maturity.

I could write much, much, more about what I have learned of the Lord, myself, and others – but I could never stop in my testimonials. Yet the Principle of this letter is that we must live by faith, and in doing so we come to a deeper understanding of just how faithful the Lord is to us, if we simply take the time to rest and reflect upon him.

It has been 15 years since my career ending heart attack in the U.S. Army, but Praise God I have more time to write about Him now!

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